At Peace

As the time for my departure draws closer and closer, people keep asking me how I'm feeling about the whole thing... am I nervous or scared or excited? The honest answer to that question would be that while there are moments when I feel nervous or overwhelmed by the hugeness of it all, overall, this just feels right. Its hard to explain, but I have a peace knowing that I am doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing. The other day, my older brother said that God doesn't expect us to know the results or consequences of our steps of faith, but that we are just supposed to take those steps while trusting in a sovereign God. In one of Gary Haugen's books (IJM's CEO), he says that God is more than prepared to use His people as instruments of truth and justice. God is prepared to "work miracles through our modest offerings of compassion and obedience." I have to keep reminding myself that God is not asking me to single-handedly change the world. He simply asks me to take steps of faith and obedience. Sometimes I am scared that I won't be strong enough to handle surrounding myself with such darkness, but the truth is that I'm not strong enough to handle it, depending only on my own strength. Thankfully, God never asks us to do things on our own or in our own strength but promises to go with us and even more, that His strength is made perfect in our weaknesses. So, I feel at peace about the adventure I am about to embark on and I feel so blessed to serve a God that chooses to use me to display His love for those suffering in the world.